Could it be?

Let me start with a little history. When I had Tristian, I had a tubal ligation - meaning that the doctor made a loop in my fallopian tubes and left a slip knot to cut off the flow from the ovaries to the uterus. This proceedure has a 1.4 chance of failure unless it's been 10 years, then it goes up to a 1.8 chance. And I have personally known women who got pregnant after a TL, one which had a TL by the same Dr. who performed mine. Other info I figures I found was that 1 in 400 women concieved after TL unless the TL followed a cesarean , then the ratio was 1 in 300. This makes me happy and hopeful because my tubal was done along with my c-section and I am regretting it.

My husband has no children of his own and I really want to give him one. I have whats called a bi-corneal uterus, meaning that instead of the nice pear-shaped area, mine is almost cut in half and has two sides. Because of this, I highly doubt that a Dr. would actually want to do a reversal or IVF, plus we really can't afford to have either proceedure done.

Well, I have been praying that God would simply fix whatever needs to be fixed in there and make it so I can have a child. About 4 or 5 months ago, I was at church and I began to feel a sort of cold burning in my lower abdominal. I can't really express it any better. It was almost like a burning, but yet it was cold. About the same time as I felt this, my Pastor called out that someone with infertility issues was being healed and that they would feel a burning sensation. Tears immediatly filled my eyes. I knew it was for me. My mom quickly helped me out into the isle and up to the front, she knew it was mine too.

Since then, I have told God that the moment I found out I was pregnant, I would quit smoking. I've told God that the baby would be His and I would do my best to raise him/her as a child of God.

Nausea and dizziness started almost a week ago. My lower back also started hurting really bad and now I've also noticed bloating and breast sensitivity and soreness. A few days ago, when I reminded God that I would quit smoking with a positive UPT, He asked me - Then why not just quit now? So, I am on day 3 of not smoking. Whether I am pregnant now or not, it is a step of Faith. It's funny that Pastor just spoke on Faith. Yes, that messege was for me. Quitting smoking is a very big step of faith. Of course, I FEEL pregnant. I really REALLY hope that I am. I am also emotional, and I hate to admit it, whiney. Now, I did have a period, but it was pretty light. It still lasted 4 days, but it wasn't very heavy. I also had one period with all 3 of my kids. The same sort of experience. I knew I was pregnant, but the test showed negative, had one period, took another test when I was late for the next one and it came out positive. Oh yeah... there's also the horrible, horrible heartburn. That was the first sign with all 3 of my other kids. Although now I do get heartburn more frequently than I used to, lately it's been REALLY frequent.

I think that when I see that positive UPT ( urine pregnancy test ) I will probably fall to the floor in tears. I will be so happy. Even now as I type this, I can barely see for the tears. I already bought a onesie LOL It says "Mommy and Daddy's Alarm Clock". That was another step of faith.

I will, of course, keep everyone updated. Thank you God for the miracle that you have in store for us.