A New Start

Ok, so here I am again, attempting to start and keep a personal blog. I have such a hard time with this because my life get's pretty full and hectic and most of the time, I just don't feel like getting on here and writing about it! Let's start with a little background.....

As my "about me" says, I am a mother of 3 wonderful kids and I have a very awesome husband. My oldest is now a teenager (13) and I just can't believe that I am the mother of a teenager. I really never thought about it, I guess, but now I'm in shock LOL. I also have a 12 year old daughter and a 10 year old son. I also can not believe that my baby is 10 years old. Today is his birthday too. My husband works for a well-drilling company and therefore works long hours and sometimes it seems as if the only time I really see him is when I wake up in the middle of the night and he's sound asleep next to me. I really do feel that he and I were meant to be together. We actually met years ago when we were both married to other people. No, we didn't have an affair or anything, relationships that start that way, usually end that way too. Our story was a little different. I worked for Radio Shack and he and his then-wife came in to buy a satellite system and I sold it to them. Then a few years later while I was working at my parents restaurant, he started working for my dad's tow company. We got along well, but that was it, we were both loyal to our spouses and did not even let the other know that we were attracted to them. After my ex and I split up, I went out one night - as was my usual routine on the weekends - and there he was standing at the bar. I went over to say hi and found out that he and his ex had split up too. We began to talk and hang out and then one day it hit me, I was in love. Oh I didn't admit it right away, I was too scared. But after about a month or so we finally decided that we weren't going to date anyone but eachother. A year later he asked me to marry him while we were standing at the top of Black Rock Mountain in Clayton, Ga and a year after that we were married. That was July 19, 2007.

Our relationship has definitely seen some hard times. We're human, we argue, we make-up and we'll argue again. The kids sometimes put a strain on us too, but I tell you, he's a really great step-dad. He has stood with me on some hard issues and I have had to let him take the lead on some that were too hard for me. I am truly very fortunate and blessed to have him as my husband and I have told him, he's stuck with me. LOL

It's very rare to find these days, but my husband doesn't have any kids of his own. This is something that we are really REALLY hoping for, but it's up to God. My tubes were tied 10 years ago today. Now I have known women who have gotten pregnant after a tubal ( and not in thier tubes ) so I just pray that God will bless us with a child. I can not get a reversal and I seriously doubt that any doctor would do an invetro fert. because my uterus is messed up and I have high-risk pregnancies. Actually, I wasn't supposed to really be able to have kids because of it. Obviously, my kids were meant to be! So, see, if God would make a way, where there was little way, and allow me to not just have one healthy baby, but 3 - Then I know that He can make a way now and allow another.

Let's see.... My real parents both died when I was young. I grew up with 'guardians' who I would not allow to adopt me because I really couldn't stand them. The girl next door and I became best friends and to this day I consider her my sister and her mom and dad, my mom and dad. I had lost touch with my real sisters from my dad's side after he died, but I found them and reunited with them in Jan 2007. It's so nice to have real family around now.

I'm sure there's so much more that I could tell you, but I'm going to stop for now. I'm sure if you come back by, you'll learn more as time goes by.